In the last while (about a month) I have felt I might be living in Lemony Snickets’ A Series of Unfortunate Events. A partial list of events:
- Car problems – repeatedly
- Phone problems – cell and landline (yes, we still have a landline)
- Furnace – more than once
- Plumbing
- Theft and Fraud
But all is not bad. I am incredibly grateful and remain positive that our health has been good.
Though I regularly ‘preach’ love, forgiveness, gratitude, mindfulness, and self-care, I am not perfect. I have been downright pissed off and angry at times. I am sure there is a lesson for me to learn from each and all of these events; I don’t know what it is yet. However, I am very grateful for the love & support of my family & friends. The outpouring of love since the theft & fraud has been magnificent.
I have taken some time to wallow in my disappointment. I have also done stuff to boost my spirits. I’ve had a hot stone massage, long soaks in the tub, and upped my meditation and mindfulness practices.
The combined event that upset me the most was the theft and fraud. I believe this was by someone I trusted in my home, but I am not 100% sure and, I will not point any fingers, but I will be more aware.
Though I do regular meditations, HeartMath (TM) Techniques, and a variety of other spiritual and mindfulness practices I couldn’t help but wonder if I was missing something. I find when I repeat the same routine for a lengthy period of time, I sometimes lose track of the purpose, and my mind wanders. It is like when you arrive home from work and realize you don’t remember the drive. So, I decided it was time for a bit of a shake-up. I revisited some practices that I had put on the proverbial shelf. Has it helped? I can’t guarantee that it has helped, but I know it has not hurt.
With all this in mind and recalling the recent feelings of frustration, impatience, disappointment, and anger swirling around in my mind and body like a winter blizzard I have been slow to implement changed practices.
We know what it means to keep doing the same thing and expect a different outcome. It is time to take action. I have taken the first steps. However, this is a process, and I will need to continue to adapt and explore.
I recite the Ekam Prayer each night. However, I have not been doing the full practice. I have now added the full practice to my morning routine. I feel good when I finish this practice.
I had slipped in the last while and my fruit and vegetable consumption has dropped. I am changing that starting today.
I also found a recording of a Healing Frequency Meditation that I have been playing in the background while I go about my tasks and activities.
Just the idea of these changes has me feeling better and more positive. I am reminded that I am in control of me. I cannot control others. I cannot control technology and machines (well, I guess I can control how I use machines, but not how the actual mechanics works), and I cannot control the weather. My focus will return to being aware of what I can control. I will remain grateful for my health (it continues to improve), and the wealth surrounding me in the form of home, food, and wonderfully supportive and loving family and friends.
We often don’t appreciate all we have until we hit a glitch or glitches. The Series of Unfortunate Events ends, and a wonderful life continues.
Take a few moments to think about all you have and for what you are grateful.